I Repent!
I want to start this post of with asking all of you guys for forgiveness, the whole time I have been focusing on receiving and my own needs when I have been so arrogant and not thinking of your heart and how I might share the good news of Jesus more with you and what he is doing in my heart. I repent for being selfish and from now on my focus is to bring you hope and love through these posts.
What is God doing?
Where to begin? So since this school started, God told me that it is a time of rebuilding my identity and foundation, it is going to be 100% on him, he also told me that it is going to be hard and there is going to be a lot of attacks. I can tell you that is has been really really hard, God has been taking me back to basics and showing me in live the things that is absolutely rubbish. He kicked it off with my quiet time with him, and was I shocked to see how he changed that fast. My whole life, bible reading and praying has been a burden, I struggled to spend more that 20min with Jesus in the morning. The consequences was that my relationship never grew as much as I thought it did because I did not take the time to get to know my father and if you do not know who your father is or how he works, you would not know how you work or who you are because he created us in his image after all. So the journey began to find out how I can get as much as I can out of my alone time with Jesus, my whole life I could not or did not want to get up at 5am because I was afraid of being too tired. Then the conviction hit, we trust God to heal cancer in our lifes, provide thousands of dollars every hear but I could not even trust him to provide energy for the day? "How does that work, it does not make sense, it has to change!" After receiving this questions and praying to Jesus admitting that I want to change my whole idea and concept of quiet time, he started laying out the plans. For about 3 week now, I have been getting up at 5am and spending almost more than an hour with Jesus and my life has changed.
Practicality
Know remember that it is not the hours that makes a difference, it all starts with heart posture, once I realized that quiet time was just another thing on the schedule and not a hearts desire, I knew it had to change! How do you change it? Like I said, once you really know who Jesus is and how important he is in our life, your heart would not be able to not spend time with Jesus for a long time, also ask Jesus to layout a plan, he did it for me and he will do it for you because he loves you to death, he wants to spend the whole time with you and that is his biggest desire. I hope this helps, if you want to know more how to increase your efficiency with Jesus, contact me please, I would love to help and spread his goodness.
Support?!
This is only going to be a brief layout of what is coming up and the needs I have, please pray and feel free do give or pray as much as you want.
The crazy nation of the previous post is still happening, please go look at the picture to find out which nation it is I am going to from July to Sept. Also the Apestello school is also still happening and I need a lot for that as well.
Thank all of you so much for reading and praying and supporting, excited to hear from you soon.
Here is the amounts I still need in 3 months time.
Crazy nation=$1600
Apestello=$6000
Love all of you so much!
Jan
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